Category Archives: peace of mind

A peace poem


some times frogs boil

some times minds foil

sticks and stones can not hurt nearly as much as words, ever

some times I wish I lived in the land of never never

hearts beat strong

lives live long

and actually sometimes there is even a king kong

world’s collide

sometimes divide

the crashing waves of hurt subside

and peace can become the normal tide

life is a pulse

a heart beat or two

so simple yet so complex

rather not be constantly vexed

peace is a path

chosen

on purpose

our lives a tapestry recorded and finite

choices all ours and have an impact into eternity

weird to think

sometimes a heart sink

and yet a choice

let peace be your choice

 

 

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Emotion


Listened to a fascinating talk shared on Facebook this am : Watch Susan David‘s TED Talk on how to control your emotions in a healthy way:http://t.ted.com/kZ3eEcm. She explores the paradigm that being positive has become to be morally “correct” and that we seem to all have bought into this delusion.

I love the way she expounds the fact that this is a dead man’s perrogative.

Emotion is part of being human and the full range of emotions is what makes us alive. They do not control us, however going through the full range actually enables success not the way we currently just wish to put on a smiley face and pretend it all happy.

Humans are complicated, thank the Lord for that. We do have emotions. We are NOT artificial intelligence robots.

Stop before you criticise a fellow human today for what you perceive to be negativity or grief or a “negative” emotion. Allow compassion, understanding and quiet supportive stillness to abide.

The joy of kinship is something I feel was worked at on a daily basis by the ancients. Community, living in “communion” and “supporting” one another friend to friend, lover to lover, something we don’t really really do anymore. Perhaps we are too busy. Perhaps we are too driven by things that actually don’t matter in the end.

We do actually need each other. And we do actually have a role in each others lives in terms of empathy, compassion and even just silent standing by –  a deep recognition of another just by “being” there in spirit and truth.

Tidal wave required


Ok so life is interesting in south africa. I would like the kind of money that Manyi  has, 450 million? was it. I would use it to “fund” my patients needs.

Diabetics, type 1’s in particular have many needs. Most of these are not taken care of by their medical aids and despite the fact that patients pay a LOT of money for the privilege of being on one.

Type 1’s require tight control of glucose above a certain range and below a certain range and everything including the weather impacts on blood sugar. Thus continuous monitoring is a tool that can make a very very big difference in a patient’s life – it can also make such a difference that the medical aid is spared costs of admissions for highs and lows, for amputation, renal dialysis, heart attacks as well as costs attached to being blind.

However medical aids at large do not seem the slightest bit interested in saving themselves money.

Far rather milk the patient for all they are worth and at the same time provide the minimum service and complain about any request made by the health care provider who has studied long and hard and has a passion to save the medical aid costs.

Yes I am angry, perhaps at this time of day I am even h”angry”.

I am tired of begging, pleading for minimum standards of care.

I am tired that overseas things get “accepted” years before they do in south africa. Are we really 3 rd world? Despite having the “Manyi’s” ???

We require a tidal wave of protest in the form of intelligent debate with the stakeholders that matter in the realm of diabetes. I am just so tired of fighting.

Please from far and wide across  this beautiful country we call home join me, join the debate, write to your medical aid. Email me : drleethegp@gmail.com.

Please.

Continous monitoring is available in 4 forms in south africa : dexcom G5 and G4, libre flash abbott, medtronic standalone CGM and most new to the scene : ever sense.

Coming in at the lower end is the abbott flash R990 once off and R990 every 2 weeks. Dexcom is a cost upfront more than about 25k and then monthly around 4 k, medtronic around 15 and 2k per month and ever sense brand new so not too sure but in the ball park for the last 2 mentioned.

What is boils down to is MARD and quite frankly this is the bottom line with CGM is accuracy. The lower the MARD the more accurate. There are really only 2 in the market that a great on MARD : dexcom G5 and ever sense, however for the cost the libre is actually a very good value for money.

The other thing that helps me as a practitioner is a trend and all of the devices are good for this.

What we need is for the medical aids to realise that CGM is a tool they their patients can NOT afford to be without! FOR THEIR own sakes – the medical aid’s sakes.

Please tsunami arrive and let’s flood the medical aids with the truth.

Alternatively could the guptas or the Manyi’s or maybe Grace Mugage give me 450 million to spend on my very deserving patients.

Thanks ;).

Innate


http://innatehilton.wix.com/innate

Holistic integrative medicine

Coxsackie,yuppie flu, post viral fatigue


Anybody who has not witnessed firsthand or experienced this evil is willy-nilly able to say that this vile vulgar viral disease is “all in your head”. I can tell you that there is no-one on this green earth who voluntarily goes through the ordeal that comes with this virus. It literally flattens you in more ways than one.

I have seen countless patients afflicted with it and whilst “science” on many levels questions this disease (instead of getting on with more accurate diagnosis) it is a disease that no-one wants and is more than happy to get rid of the day it leaves their bodies.

I have to ask though why the medical profession at large is sceptical and ridiculously pathetic when it comes to diagnosis as well as treatment (of which there is little). And once again in my mind it goes back to something similar to semelweiss. The washing of hands idea disdained by so many pompous egotistical physicians turned out to be one of the most important discoveries of science and prevention of transmission of disease. Why are we so arrogant? Who gave us this “god” complex?

When we don’t fully understand something or don’t know we simply say it must not/can not exist and therefore the patient themselves must be “mad” ????????????

Surely surely we have gone past this aged way of thinking ?

No, alas it seems we have not. We will not admit we don’t know. Rather make it the patients added problem.

I think it is sad and poor.

I only hope that none of these arrogant physicians ever actually come down with it as they may lose their egos in the process.viruss

Google the semelweiss history – it’s interesting and very very sad. Sad because why can we not drop ego and rather try to understand what the very truth of the matter indeed may be.

Pump for me or not for me?


Report back : We had a marvellous discussion about pumps on wednesday evening. Highly enjoyable and informative, even our pump patient learnt something.

JOIn us today : On wednesday night 530 pm in Hilton Pietermaritzburg we will be holding an informal hour discussion about pumps -insulin pump therapy. What is pump therapy ? Who “qualifies”? What is the benefit. Is it for everyone who injects insulin?

Feel free to join us for free for an hour to explore the “pump market” in south africa and get first hand feedback from “pump” patients 😉

Surgery as a patient


The hardest 2 things I have ever had to do is deliver 2 babies. Yes I did do it naturally and perhaps at the age of 37 and 39 I should have listened to the wise advice of so many colleagues and had 2 planned caesars. I wanted the very best for the two angels that I had waited so many years for and I believed going through the birth canal was that. What I did not realise is what it would take out of and from me.

Delivering a child naturally comes with a lot of waiting (patience has never been my forte). It then involves an “older” body “co-operating” with the birth process. If that had all happened “naturally” I guess it may have been different. My body needed help and in the second birth it needed an ocean of a medication called oxytocin (syntocinon). This very large dose into my system helped my 39 year old uterus contract in order to deliver one 3.5 kg baby.

I will keep you in a bit of suspense, like a bit of a thriller novel.

I have just (last friday) had surgery – 4 years after my precious second child’s birth. It was an operation to effectively remove my uterus. This organ that has caused a fair amount of poor quality of life. The surgeon was extremely happy with his operation (they usually are) and presented me with a photo of the wretched organ and great news that it had gone swimmingly.

Wind back 4 years. I had just delivered a baby at around 3 am in the morning. The team were tired. God knows they had had me in chunks. No nursing staff are ever delighted to “nurse” a lady doctor – goes against many grains. I was lying in a lot of blood and had already started to bleed. I was in a fair amount of pain considering I had already delivered a child. The pain escalated, the nausea escalated, the bleeding escalated. I called for help so to speak and was told to shut up and sleep (in my own blood) they had really had enough of me for one night. I tried again. I phoned a friend – no one was up at 4 am. I tried my husband – his phone was off – he was trying to sleep after a hell of a night. I phoned the neighbour and asked him to wake my husband and come to the hospital.

AT one point I left my body and watched mayhem from above.

I woke up – well “arrived” back in my body about 2 days later having been taken to theatre, resuscitated, transfused etc. They never did figure out what was causing my pain 4 years ago. I started on a long journey of recovery mentally, physically and emotionally.

The surgeon showed me (this last saturday)

what happened – my uterus had ruptured and well lets just say the human body is an amazing thing.

I do certainly wish that it had been discovered 4 years ago for a few reasons. The very first and most important being my marriage which suffered greatly for the rupture. The second being the suffering that could so easily have been avoided. I can actually deal with a fair amount (though I do believe my pain threshold is useless), but my wish would be for another women to not have to go through the journey I have travelled. The third being the faith I have lost in my own “kind”. Never did I think it possible to be treated the way I was that night or on 3 occasions where all I really wanted was an apology from the midwife and all staff closed rank and called me something close to a lunatic and just bloody well get over this and move on.

Well I can now. Move on.

I can also say that a hysterectomy is a relative walk in the park. Almost a non-event. Yes I had pain post-op and yes I required the strong stuff. But 2 days later I was not on anything for pain and today I feel like I could run a marathon (I won’t for all those urging me to rest).

Life is an interesting journey and some of the suffering actually helps create focus and for that I am grateful. The most awesome part is just beginning – a journey with Dave and my two girls.