Category Archives: dancing with obstacles

Coxsackie,yuppie flu, post viral fatigue


Anybody who has not witnessed firsthand or experienced this evil is willy-nilly able to say that this vile vulgar viral disease is “all in your head”. I can tell you that there is no-one on this green earth who voluntarily goes through the ordeal that comes with this virus. It literally flattens you in more ways than one.

I have seen countless patients afflicted with it and whilst “science” on many levels questions this disease (instead of getting on with more accurate diagnosis) it is a disease that no-one wants and is more than happy to get rid of the day it leaves their bodies.

I have to ask though why the medical profession at large is sceptical and ridiculously pathetic when it comes to diagnosis as well as treatment (of which there is little). And once again in my mind it goes back to something similar to semelweiss. The washing of hands idea disdained by so many pompous egotistical physicians turned out to be one of the most important discoveries of science and prevention of transmission of disease. Why are we so arrogant? Who gave us this “god” complex?

When we don’t fully understand something or don’t know we simply say it must not/can not exist and therefore the patient themselves must be “mad” ????????????

Surely surely we have gone past this aged way of thinking ?

No, alas it seems we have not. We will not admit we don’t know. Rather make it the patients added problem.

I think it is sad and poor.

I only hope that none of these arrogant physicians ever actually come down with it as they may lose their egos in the process.viruss

Google the semelweiss history – it’s interesting and very very sad. Sad because why can we not drop ego and rather try to understand what the very truth of the matter indeed may be.

The truth -why white people should stop whining and the whole country should stand together and DEMAND democracy


The real bonafide truth – what is that? In south africa at the moment -what is the truth? What are the bonafide real real indisputable hard FACTS?

I think it is hard. The reality of the average homeless or jobless person is very very far removed from the average Gupta family member or for that matter cabinet member who spends as much as “butter belly” Dlamini on travel in one year.

I think its impossible to know where the likes of those with brains stand at the moment. We have a new word – to “mantash” – it’s to do a 180 degree turn in opinion in a matter of a few days. How does one reconcile this “change in attitude” with the real truth of the matter?

I think there is so much we do not understand about our president’s agenda. I think we are in for a very rude awakening. He is not going anywhere. He has a lot of dirt on a lot of people. What is the truth behind this man?

History proves that good does not win in the short term. We can look at Hilter and Stalin and HF Verwoerd and South Sudan and Robert Mugabe. These men and places are evil personified and caused suffering for the masses but yet prevailed. They ruled. They dictated. They dictate.

The truth is scary. As a white minority in south africa our future is indeed bleak. I can not see how this could be different. The sad part for me is where does that leave the masses of underpriveledge people who are currently once again a pawn in a chess game?

The truth is that they will never be “considered” in a kind way in terms of their own future either. Used -yes. Promised – yes. But deliver? No – not if you look at the truth of the matter.

Mugabe has literally gotten away with murder on many accounts. He raped and pillaged Zimbabwe’s treasury and guess what – he remains. At the ripe old age that he is.

Think long and hard about what you really can do? I am not saying do nothing. But it will take a LOT more than marches etc, petitions etc and “white whining” to get this mess sorted. And if history is anything to go by – the future is bleak.

No I do not want that – but I am trying to wake you -yes YOU up to the reality of what it is going to take. We have spineless people (they have brains) in parliament – the chances of a vote of no confidence is extremely slim.

If you really care about this country and ALL it’s countrymen what we need now is more than a miracle.

Surgery as a patient


The hardest 2 things I have ever had to do is deliver 2 babies. Yes I did do it naturally and perhaps at the age of 37 and 39 I should have listened to the wise advice of so many colleagues and had 2 planned caesars. I wanted the very best for the two angels that I had waited so many years for and I believed going through the birth canal was that. What I did not realise is what it would take out of and from me.

Delivering a child naturally comes with a lot of waiting (patience has never been my forte). It then involves an “older” body “co-operating” with the birth process. If that had all happened “naturally” I guess it may have been different. My body needed help and in the second birth it needed an ocean of a medication called oxytocin (syntocinon). This very large dose into my system helped my 39 year old uterus contract in order to deliver one 3.5 kg baby.

I will keep you in a bit of suspense, like a bit of a thriller novel.

I have just (last friday) had surgery – 4 years after my precious second child’s birth. It was an operation to effectively remove my uterus. This organ that has caused a fair amount of poor quality of life. The surgeon was extremely happy with his operation (they usually are) and presented me with a photo of the wretched organ and great news that it had gone swimmingly.

Wind back 4 years. I had just delivered a baby at around 3 am in the morning. The team were tired. God knows they had had me in chunks. No nursing staff are ever delighted to “nurse” a lady doctor – goes against many grains. I was lying in a lot of blood and had already started to bleed. I was in a fair amount of pain considering I had already delivered a child. The pain escalated, the nausea escalated, the bleeding escalated. I called for help so to speak and was told to shut up and sleep (in my own blood) they had really had enough of me for one night. I tried again. I phoned a friend – no one was up at 4 am. I tried my husband – his phone was off – he was trying to sleep after a hell of a night. I phoned the neighbour and asked him to wake my husband and come to the hospital.

AT one point I left my body and watched mayhem from above.

I woke up – well “arrived” back in my body about 2 days later having been taken to theatre, resuscitated, transfused etc. They never did figure out what was causing my pain 4 years ago. I started on a long journey of recovery mentally, physically and emotionally.

The surgeon showed me (this last saturday)

what happened – my uterus had ruptured and well lets just say the human body is an amazing thing.

I do certainly wish that it had been discovered 4 years ago for a few reasons. The very first and most important being my marriage which suffered greatly for the rupture. The second being the suffering that could so easily have been avoided. I can actually deal with a fair amount (though I do believe my pain threshold is useless), but my wish would be for another women to not have to go through the journey I have travelled. The third being the faith I have lost in my own “kind”. Never did I think it possible to be treated the way I was that night or on 3 occasions where all I really wanted was an apology from the midwife and all staff closed rank and called me something close to a lunatic and just bloody well get over this and move on.

Well I can now. Move on.

I can also say that a hysterectomy is a relative walk in the park. Almost a non-event. Yes I had pain post-op and yes I required the strong stuff. But 2 days later I was not on anything for pain and today I feel like I could run a marathon (I won’t for all those urging me to rest).

Life is an interesting journey and some of the suffering actually helps create focus and for that I am grateful. The most awesome part is just beginning – a journey with Dave and my two girls.

Josef Pilates – unconventional response


I do just love the story of this man, born in Germany to a father of greek descent. He had “healthy” parents who got the flame kindled for what was to come. He was a sickly child with many obstacles to overcome and born into the world at a challenging time. He was a circus performer who toured England and somehow also got involved in training the scotland yard police in physical training.

When the war broke out he was “interned” on the isle of man due to being german (first world war). It was during this time that he helped prisoners of war who were bedridden to “exercise” by “creating” novel equipment so that they could exercise in bed.

He was a war hero and asked by the kaiser to train german troops but declined the offer and rather went across to America to start a new life (and not partake in world war 2).

In Manhatten he started a “contrology” studio in the same building as some dance studios and the rest is largely history.

I find it fascinating that someone dealt a fairly difficult hand of cards came up so trumps with this “new” form of exercise that now helps millions of people across the globe.

If you have not tried pilates do it today : mind body soul invigoration!

don’t just sit there – phone around, google and go

Vaccinations, walls, xenophobia, fake news – cos some folk are just that stupid!


These are all things we got over like last century. I read a great article about NOT vaccinating your children – the article is tongue in cheek suggesting we go back a century and have 11 kids hoping that 3 will survive and similar suggestions.

Many years ago -like more than 100 or more (?1000) kings used to build walls to protect themselves from “baddies”!

WE are in 2017 people, get with the programme please dear my goodness gracious me!!

WE have progressed, we are an international community, we are not able to build walls for protection ? We are well able to protect ourselves from ugly diseases with vaccines developed by science.

Fake news people, absolute crap on the internet people. Get your mind into 2017 as well as into your body. You are a soul you live in a body you have a mind. Get a grip is what I mean. The world has turned upside down and it needs to be turned right side up.

Diabetes cure?


There are various teams around the world – dedicated scientists and enthusiastic people working on all aspects of diabetes – trying to find prevention, cure, treatments – better, onwards and upwards. The diabetic scientific community at large strive for better quality of life.

There are also many snake juice paddlers as there are fake news folk. Do not be duped or sucked into some scam.

It’s a pity that in the light of such a huge and devastating epidemic there would be folk peddling snake juice and basically lying to a vulnerable subset of people. But that is life and ours the task to engage the brain and always question.

New treatments, closed loop technology and cures are on the horizon and I salute the many people working around the clock to accomplish that. Please the internet if FULL of rubbish – surf wisely.

The power of the double x


Do not under-estimate the power of a woman. Once activated she can be radio-active. A ball of fire. A genuine force of nature. WE are not half x and half y – we are double x or double X!

Made from Adam’s rib, created to be a help-meet. Created to bare both boys and girls. Created to create.

Women across the world have a kindred spirit – gentle, kind, strong ,powerful. We tend to “attack” problems or hiccups in a very different way to our XY counterparts. Empathy is like breathing for us. Life and it’s ebb and flow very much part of each day’s struggle to nurture our children and loved ones. A privilege we cherish yet sometimes hard to keep on keeping on.

Take Ingrid Jonker – a women whose heart literally bled for south africa. She struggled so intricately ¬†with herself and her father’s rejection that it forced her to walk into the sea, yet the poetry she wrote was pure gold that flowed out of that tortured and tormented soul -deep so deep, squeezed and percolated through her fragile life. She leaves us with a legacy of touching tales that shake your core and leave you in awe.

Thuli Madonsela – a tribute to justice and dogged yet gentle pursuit of the truth without being rude, disdaining or plain. A strong tall tree yet softly spoken authority. A real rare gem leader. Astounding ability to hold her own self back and gently speak to a situation. She radiates, emanates peace and truth, it seeps through her pores and is heard.

There are so many examples of women through the ages. Steel women, whose hearts are so fragile and gentle they are broken by the weight of a feather, yet stand despite the brokenness. Beat despite the lack of a song to accompany the beat. Sometimes beat to the sole beat of a single drum. But pick up that pace they do.

XX a gift to us. We got double the staying power, double the gentle breeze.